Fuming

This is like the month of selfish people. I will never lend anybody money again, not unless you're my mother or one of 4 friends.

I didnt even mean to lend someone the money, because I really truly do not have it. But they're in a tight spot, so they paypal me money and after waiting a week for it to clear paypal and the bank I send it to them. I thought I was safe, but no. Their bank reverses the payment, and I am left to owe paypal $400 that they are threatening to send to collections.

I am so pissed off it hurts. Because I'm trying so hard to save and make my future brighter, but helping someone out ends up hurting me. It has been 3 weeks. 3 weeks since it happened! And the person refuses to do whatever it takes to give me back my money, instead they keep asking me for $20 to get a cab to go to the bank ... why the eff would I give you more money when you owe me??? And now, still asking for $20 to go pick up their NEW CAR so they can come give me the money. Now who can afford a new car but can't afford to give me money they owe me in 3 weeks!!!

And he acts like I am some fucking female he's used to ... can I lend him money so he can go to the bank and then come and bring me to lunch as a thank you, or so he can come show me his new car, or have I spoken to his friends lately? I am not impressed by you, nothing about you is impressive! You are a low-life dick who feeds on other people's discomfort and think about no one but yourself! I am sorry to say I know you, much less have known you for this long. And I am sorry I took pity on you, I should've known everything I needed to know about you when you squealed like a pig because your ex-gf caught you making a phone call! You're not worthy ... money and flashy cars do not make up for your flawed character, sketchy friends and your inability to maintain mature, responsible relationships. You will forever be fucked over by people because that is all you fucking do! Imagine, you with all your business-owning friends and family had to call me to help you out! And I did not make you wait or take payment you offered for helping you. You cannot buy people, and you will find out that you cannot buy good friends. And you have just lost the best one you'll ever have.

Starting tomorrow, I'm making a sharp right turn to Bitchy Blvd. I will call every number I have in connection to him, open a paypal case, call his parents, facebook his friends ... he will wish he never met me.

Self-ish people

I am so annoyed right now. I spent a lot of money buying a really nice bedding set, and because it can only be dry cleaned I usually lay on it with a blanket under me. So imagine how pissed I am, to come from work, feet aching and the door is locked with no one answering; finally get inside to find that someone made scratches in the bedding thread (no big deal I got it out) and CHEX CEREAL in my bed,and to top it off, sugar stains on it as well. When I asked my sister who it was, she replied she changed my niece on my bed. WHY in this world would she go all the way upstairs to change a baby when her room is right by the stairs? And that still doesnt answer why there is cereal and stains on my bed!! Mind you, she didn't even open the door to talk to me and when I kept asking her questions she turns up the tv volume. REALLY? She is so effing selfish that girl, and I see it all the time. She actually owed me money and 4 weeks later when I'm finally asking for it, she asks me if it isn't better for her to keep it and give me at a later time? Because wouldn't I spend it on something instead of save it? WTF? I worked for my money and had no problem lending it to you, why are you trying to determine how & when it is best to spend my money? Then she made a joke that she would give me my money on my birthday as a birthday present. At least I thought it was a joke ... she did give me the money and nothing else. I don't expect anything from her. As the last child, she is used to receiving and not giving, and I cant remember the last birthday gift she gave me... but the fact that she said it and then did it made think that she really thought that paying me back was a gift.

Her birthday is next month, and somehow, every single year since I have been able to buy her a gift -- right before I do so she shows me her ugly colors. Just today I thought of it, and look what happened.

And now that I spoke to my mom about it, I'm even more astounded by her selfishness. While she may not have been responsible for the cereal, my niece had done #2 and instead of changing her in her own room, she came upstairs, neglected the bedroom in the attic, and changed her on my brand new bedding set. I always knew growing up she would be spoiled, but she really outdoes herself sometimes.