The Price of Learning

Today in Macy's a woman grabbed my hand and started dancing with me! So I danced with her even though I thought maybe she mistook me for someone else. But I don't think she did! She mentioned that she loved the song that was playing and even told me her mom passed a while back and her name was Lisa, like the owner of Carol's Daughter (I was searching for the Carol's daughter counter). She also told me I had beautiful eyes. I told her she did too, hers were a pale blue-green-gray that looked magnificent on her brown skin. I hope I can be that joyous one day. She told me to have a blessed day.

I did.

I spent some quality time with two of my best friends Dane and Sasha, and I really enjoyed it. I had a dance-inducing Starbucks iced coffee & an amazing jumbo chocolate chip cookie, compliments of Mary's gift card). I kept hoping Alex was there ... I want to do normal stuff with him, like walk around the mall holding hands and kissing on the escalator going up. I really miss him, everything about him. My really good friends are the ones hat bring happiness to my life, even when they're not there.

I also prayed and asked God to help me heal and forgive. I am so angry at Rich. The way he took advantage of me really hurts, I helped him from my heart the best way I could. I really went out of my way, and out of my comfort zone, and now that it is having a very negative effect on me he just lies and lies and shows me he doesn't care. He is so selfish, even knowing I have so little to begin with.

I guess I'll have to just pay the price and be glad he is out of my life. I'm trying really hard not to wish bad on him, but it brings me actual pain to think about him much less think of him doing well.

It is a lesson to me to keep poisonous people out.

"When people show you who they really are, believe them."

I'm going to start spring cleaning tomorrow, there's another person who I have to talk to clearly so they understand they are not welcome in my life.

I am just putting all my faith in God, keeping my head up, and eyes forward.